A light touch

Just a small kiss

that's all this would take

to ease a troubled mind

A small kiss

is the only caress

needed to calm my heart

And just one small kiss

would prove

it's not all for naught

So tell me kind lass

what is it in this world

that would clear your cloudedness

Just tell me

what you need

for me to show

you a beautiful world

Say the word

and I'll be there

Say one small word

and I'll leave this place

convince the moon

to shine so bright for you

I'll say these things to you

and wait for you to tell me

what one small kiss

will mean to you

Breath of Love

My love grows

like new born flowers

it gives me breath

like the wind whipsers through the grass

My love surges

as the passing water

come share this with me

and get lost at sea

Breathe in and slow your heart

turn around and feel like me

as it beats slower

you'll relax

and let yourself smile

and feel the breeze

carry your past away

let me seal your future

with a kiss above your brow

Haunted Nights, Again

I'm finding myself in that place again

Alone and dreaming about her

each night my mind taunts me

flaunts her through my lucid state

and I wake up to find that it's all a trick

there's a recurring feeling

that this is all too bittersweet

i love that i can love again

and i love that i can feel the pain

and this is not an oxymoron

but it's for sure this hurts so good

the endorphines of this can only last so long

until i realize that i'm carving another wound within

but hey, that's the point of loving

there are no other means for me to live

but whom am I to kid

you're no where near now

and I know you can't hear these words

I just hope that if I stay steady

the river of fate will bring you back to me

View of the future

Now that we are enamorated

and finding ourselves at an impass

I'll still be waiting for you

So let's start this little obsession

because i can't see myself forgetting

about those nights

and getting lost in your eyes

I'll just hope to be able

to run my hands through your hair

again

Down the Well

I dig my hole

deeper every blink

you can come down here

where bats and nightmares fly

it's a place I call home now

you may get lost on the way

unfortunately, I can't help you

hell, I can't even help myself

shine me a ray of promise

The Aftermath of Time

my life was simple

all those years ago

i loved and i played

my mind was clear

and my dreams were vivid

 

as time passed

things became intricate

tiers of my life collapsed

leaving behind

only a dusty brain

 

today i try to see

through the storm

whether i'll ever focus again

find a means to live

in a place that is clear

where i can love and play

once more

Crash and Burn

Let me tell you the real story

A fool whom spent his time

Trying to clamor and hold on

To stay above the flood

Lifts his feet out of the lava

Now it's slowly killing him

All that's left for him to do

Is crash and burn

Breathe in the ashes

And with some hope

Revive again tomorrow

Man of the Sea

Love stricken

at the age of thirteen

i spent marked time

growing intimate 

using every sense

to solidify my relationship

with love

Moons have past

nights have torn

and bled and cried

i've weathered 

every perfect storm

but i'm alone at last

Now I slumber

and I wait

I seek for a time

where I can 

reignite my love

where I can

rise from the sea

and pass through

the countless colors

and know I'm at home

A New Light

many things tell me to be grateful

there are many days when i can smile

i continually have hope 

but i still find myself half empty

i only wish to find that missing half

every sunday i find myself

in a place of loneliness

in a place where 

i'm reminded she exists

my only wish is to see her

to hold her hand and feel

that breath of fresh air

and hold her close

to feel complete again

i'm bitter and sour every moment 

i'm confronted with the thought of her

i need to hear her voice

to calm my soul and lift me from 

the hydrated soil

to lift me up

the thunder surges through me

the first clap of the year

in a way that shows me she listens

she hears my plea of happiness

she speaks to me in every dream

i want to spread the light 

amongst ourselves

but i'm fearful i don't have the strength

i want to confide in her

i want her to rain upon me

and wash away this shell

and resurrect hope once more

The Daemon

i need to feel it surge through my veins, 

i cant feel you here anymore 

you sleep alone, 

by yourself is all you have 

i dont have a single care 

about what happens from now on

it only matters whats left behind 

this endless night will never leave 

ill tell you now, 

get the fuck away, 

our time is done 

ill dredge through this muddy path 

that floods of tears have infested 

and pull myself through to the other side 

and find my own feet again 

while you can just watch 

this incessant story of a man 

who worked his way to get back to you 

and you walked away 

now his mind is clear 

a spark is all he needs 

to rip through 

to rip through this shredded apparel 

and start a new for himself 

he loves only the blood on his hands

he feels him coming back

i tamed him for you

and now that you're gone

i only hope i still can hold him back

he rages like a rampid fire within

boiling behind his eyes

the parasite to his soul 

gives him the strength

to not let this pain suffocate

his mind his heart his dreams

a bargain 

that might just be worth it

the bull rages through

wreaking havoc to every inch

of the shambles he struggles to hold

we can only hope that

he fights for himself now

he feels him coming back

i tamed him for you

and now that you're gone

i only hope i still can hold him back

he rages like a rampid fire within

boiling behind his eyes

his sheets consume him

riddled with the scents 

that i can still smell

eyes close to this world

and opens the curtains

to the horrors of bliss

the terrors of engulfing brunette hair

he will not surrender

he loves only the blood on his hands

he fights for himself now

he will not surrender

The Horde

slip me another martini

i'll close my eyes

and remember the times

you told me it'll be alright

just grab my hand 

and we'll flee from sight

now all i have is our broken promises

i fled into the night

running from the sight

of all these nights and dreams alike

from fantasies and peculiarities

to the glide of your hair and embrace

i know i'm face to face with the enemy

but keep them close they say

for they may bring some good karma

one day

clenched fists

bring the debris of pain

that's raining down

to a halt 

i'll run head first into the fight

they'll watch to make sure

i don't make it out

Beached

Rest a shored

he'll find peace one day

the kind of serenity

that her look devoted to him

that flushing feeling 

all it'll take is one look

Pulling himself onto the beach

he looks to the sky to fill his lungs

torn lips and a swollen mind

give him no room to survive

all it'll take is one kiss

he struggles to start his heart

one of many tired and beaten muscles

one cool breeze can send him floating backwards

he grasps shallow roots to hang on

all it'll take is one love

The Pursuit

Saturated hues and faded smiles

bring burning sensations of nostalgia

to a time where he saw in her blue skies

the man he would become

Somehow dark grays surged through

he struggled to fight it

but succumbed he did to the fog

a mist he cannot shake

Synchronized dark blues rip through him

he knows the night will hunt him

ravage his mind and revive his treads

he must find his feet

Staying afloat, he continually tries

he must let himself sink

to feel the pain of the deep

to see if there is still a need

to fight the current

Tonight, he may not resurface

The beginning...

I've spent a considerable amount of time developing my writing and only a select few have been exposed to it.  I want to spend my time now posting my work publicly, rather than have it sit on my google docs for only a few friends and myself to read.  I hope you enjoy, and I would like to develop this blog into an ongoing story rather than just post small unrelated pieces.

.jay