A New Light

many things tell me to be grateful

there are many days when i can smile

i continually have hope 

but i still find myself half empty

i only wish to find that missing half

every sunday i find myself

in a place of loneliness

in a place where 

i'm reminded she exists

my only wish is to see her

to hold her hand and feel

that breath of fresh air

and hold her close

to feel complete again

i'm bitter and sour every moment 

i'm confronted with the thought of her

i need to hear her voice

to calm my soul and lift me from 

the hydrated soil

to lift me up

the thunder surges through me

the first clap of the year

in a way that shows me she listens

she hears my plea of happiness

she speaks to me in every dream

i want to spread the light 

amongst ourselves

but i'm fearful i don't have the strength

i want to confide in her

i want her to rain upon me

and wash away this shell

and resurrect hope once more

The Daemon

i need to feel it surge through my veins, 

i cant feel you here anymore 

you sleep alone, 

by yourself is all you have 

i dont have a single care 

about what happens from now on

it only matters whats left behind 

this endless night will never leave 

ill tell you now, 

get the fuck away, 

our time is done 

ill dredge through this muddy path 

that floods of tears have infested 

and pull myself through to the other side 

and find my own feet again 

while you can just watch 

this incessant story of a man 

who worked his way to get back to you 

and you walked away 

now his mind is clear 

a spark is all he needs 

to rip through 

to rip through this shredded apparel 

and start a new for himself 

he loves only the blood on his hands

he feels him coming back

i tamed him for you

and now that you're gone

i only hope i still can hold him back

he rages like a rampid fire within

boiling behind his eyes

the parasite to his soul 

gives him the strength

to not let this pain suffocate

his mind his heart his dreams

a bargain 

that might just be worth it

the bull rages through

wreaking havoc to every inch

of the shambles he struggles to hold

we can only hope that

he fights for himself now

he feels him coming back

i tamed him for you

and now that you're gone

i only hope i still can hold him back

he rages like a rampid fire within

boiling behind his eyes

his sheets consume him

riddled with the scents 

that i can still smell

eyes close to this world

and opens the curtains

to the horrors of bliss

the terrors of engulfing brunette hair

he will not surrender

he loves only the blood on his hands

he fights for himself now

he will not surrender