release me

feels like there’s two
two persons in one,
while i try to mold them together
there are times i feel like i need to stretch
but it gets more intense than that
i feel like i need to scream and let
the inner one out

it feels like he can grab a hold of my sternum
and tear his way out of my exterior
full of raw passion, no restrictions, no worries
is this my soul? am I supposed to let it out?
all i know is that he’s stronger than I am
and all I do is hold him back, keep him caged

the only thing that keeps me from letting go
is that i fear he may not be for good
I fear that he’ll wreak havoc to everything around me
but, could this be the warrior within me?
Do I have no choice but to let him out?
To fight this battle that rages around me
riddled with blades and knives and mail
ready to stand to anything that comes to me
Stand up and raise the roof of this encroaching world
have him set his eyes to the sky and take flight

So I continue to remain here, still, waiting
But I feel he won’t be able to wait much longer
I want to be ready to let him out, to know certainly
but I dont know if I have that liberty,
and I may just need to have faith